>>17115564it's okay, you don't have to try so hard. i appreciate the effort though. i remember a time when i was out on the streets by choice, hitchhiking, and it was one of the best times of my life. no matter the struggles i endured, all those sleepless nights spent in the cold and sometimes rain, i could always smile just for the sake of being out there. here it feels like my spirit has been crushed, and i am held captive to my own mind. only novelty bothers to excite me anymore, when passion used to rule my mind. this life is hard, and i'm struggling to find reasons to continue on the way i am, not that i'm necessarily suicidal, but sometimes it's hard to think of what change i can make to pull myself out of this situation, so it makes me feel stuck and utterly helpless. sorry for rambling, and i don't want to force you to interact with me if you don't want to
