I will never forgive myself for wasting my life...
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I want to make my mom proud.
I want to have money to buy her that little house with garden that she dreams of.
I want to be able to provide for her, for her deserved rest.
I want to lift the burden of carrying the fate of our family off her shoulders. So she can enjoy her life to the fullest. I can't stand her sacrificing herself for someone like me.
I want to make my dead at ease, that he won't need to worry about me.
I want to make sure that my little brother has a future that he can look forward to.
I want to be sure he is not ashamed of me, so that he can say 'Yes, this is my big brother'.
I want to make sure that my grandmother can read the book she is so waiting for before she...
I don't need anything else.
Only then I could say that my life was worth living.
I can't stop thinking about the despair and disappointment that my mom would feel that I failed at life. That for all the promises it all came to nothing. That she couldn't say to her friends 'My son makes me so proud. I couldn't possibly be happier!'. She doesn't deserve this. She is the greatest beacon of hope that one can imagine.
