>>12646984I think I'm done. Working from home for over a year and I've finally cracked. I've been working at less than than 100% for a while but I hit 0% this week. Spend more energy trying to justify not having done anything than actually working. I got promoted into a new role and am failing to adjust. Hit a mental dead end. Started drinking on weekdays which I had never done before.
I've lost one year of my life over this shit just when I felt I was getting my shit together. I'm at the age where I'm tired of trying to find solutions that never stick due to nihilism. Reading Ride the Tiger and it seems to address precisely that mindset but I've been through this enough times to not place too much belief into a solution magically appearing out of thin air. I've never enjoyed living.
