>>15585557i feel you mountain jew, Im 21 yo in shape, I have hobbies and friends, I work for the protection of my nature etc. But since the last 4 years I´ve been thinking about killing myself. It doesnt matter if something good happens, I never find joy in things, only when Im the forest I can achieve a certain piece of peace.
This world just feels so fake, I keep studying for a hist I dont like, to have a life I dont want, in order to be able to fight for a woman that I wont find, cause most of the ones I met are fucking trash I would hate to date.
I want to have a family, but why would I do that, if starting with me I cant even be sane in this world, I dont want the same for my children. Or maybe Im the problem dont know
