>>12471302Dude just become a practitioner of stoicism. Assuming you're European, it will give you the structure of religion, connection to your past and then just look into metaphysics in general.
My ideas and beliefs around the metaphysical/ spiritual/ supernatural is vague yet it's very constantly and feels very real. Whenever i try to "pin it down" to some spicific religion I end up feeling like I'm missing the point. We have billions of people on earth and countless cultures and beliefs. What are the chances that there is a one ultimate truth that a humans decovered. Its most likely that all these people are searching for the ultimate truth and falling short. But all rivers lead to the ocean.