>>11075039I'm in the same boat as you, if you don't like socializing nothing in society seems fun. At this point you have to make your own entertainment. I've been playing foxhole which is the kind of game you've described to a T, but it's fun and passes the time. I just ignore all thoughts telling me everything's pointless and I convince myself that everything is meaningful even if people don't know or care about it, and I've done that through pure mental discipline alone.
As a form of entertainment I've started reading / watching old mysticism books like this,
https://youtu.be/j3P8KMXlK7Y they can really help pass the time.
I don't have a good job but I don't care at all, I don't want to buy anything except a house and land so I can't see myself putting an insane amount of work in to get something that I don't really care about.
