>>3045192I'll try and keep this short but prepare yourself for a wall.
I've always been a bit of an introvert and most of my problems started in 5th grade when I developed ADHD and what I thought at the time was a mild form of depression. Before 5th grade my grades were A's and rarely a B was in there. During 5th they dropped to straight F's. However any time I brought this up to my parents I would always get a "You're fine." Skip to the end of 5th and I get held back due to my grades. The second time around I got a teacher who detested me I guess and after 3 weeks put me in detention. Due to the problems listed above I couldn't focus nor get myself to care enough to do the work. Which in turn led to me spending about 200 days from 8am -3am in a room where we couldn't talk, in a cubicle. Staring at the wall.
Since I got held back and wasn't in the halls that meant I lost all of my friends basically. Luckily I did manage to find about 4 people that I enjoyed being around and they didn't refuse to be around me like everyone else. During my time in school there were rumors abound about me which were started by my next door neighbor whom was my childhood "friend." Since he was the only one I could really talk to I put up with it I guess. At home he was awesome but at school he started all kinds of shit. Some of the rumors included me fucking my dog somehow and getting molested. You can see where this is going.
Well, that was my school life pretty much. I eventually got kicked out/moved to home schooling online (so the school didn't have an increase in dropouts) and even then I couldn't do it. Eventually gave up and refused to do anything. I never got my diploma. At around 16 the 4 friends I did have turned to drug addicts or thieves and around this time I realized that they might be what's dragging me down/holding me back. (Cont. in next post.
