>>6455770fr*gposters on suicide watch
If this was your first ever gf / beloved person, it's only normal to have it hard. You should feel proud for being able to maintain your little community and contacts with her, albeit just make sure you will be good with seeing her by someone's elses side. Don't be a creep and maybe change a bit if you feel like you could ever have any chances - not everybody has to fall in love at the same moment, even though that's the most natural(?) occurence in my opinion.
You could start growing up by deleting your fr*gs and better maintaining your 4chan activity.
