>>10231189this single thought drove me into escapism for over a decade. I was a heroin addict but i would do 200+mg shots of Ketimine, research chemicals and other dissociatives, i shot meth and speedballs..I knew at times with some concoctions that the shot had a very high degree of killing me. People say this alot but i REALLY should not be here, my last trip to the ICU should of been my last and would of been had i not been found/given CPR..i had some mental issues after (oxygen deprivation) and no short term memory to speak of...anyway, i'm alive now. enjoying time tha is see as "bonus time"..zero fear of death, a complete and total acceptance of whatever may come ..
