>>9542752captcha is bugging me, I made a whole litanny but instead of saying post too long it says I just mistyped it
I did try get a therapist session, but when it came to booking an appointment I lost my way to the hospital and I just gave up after 2 hours walking around the city incompetent to figure out where the hell am I supposed to go
tl;dr: version
>abusive parents and sibling>no support for my odd hobbies>odd one out>typical prodigy burnout gone horribly wrong>hooked on alchohol since 16>couldn't stop until I got a seizure at 18>since then only pot, ephedrine, bath salts and whatever that pinkish powder was, it wasn't meth nor speed, it was pretty weak<but the only drug I ever enjoyed was nitrous AND I CAN'T FIND NANGS ANYWHERE OTHER THAN ONLINE ORDERS REEEEEEEEEE
>contemplate suicide, house is falling apart and can't hold 70 kilos of anything hanging>stuck a screwdriver in one of.the holes of the outlet>nothing>stuck it in another one>a zap, but not a deadly one, isolation from ground is such bullshit>cured of suicidal tendencies, but still quite sad and lonelyI am flooded with emotions and my friends don't know how nor can be bothered to listen to all my narcotic bs, I know I will likely be ignorred on this site but this the only place left for me to vent
