>>13524291Im someone who suffers from immensense pride and arrogance. In Kabbalah the qlifot of Kether is Thaumiel its the duality of God. Its arrogance its the meaning behind the story of Satan.
I myself also regret my life and my past actions. I was given multiple chances at having a happy life but I was too much of an autistic arrogant and uninitiative cunt to take my chances and now I am left with only internet friends. I fucked up high school and was too much of a selfish asshole or too shy to do anything. I was always withdrawn and more interested in the inside world of gaming and fantasy than going outside with mates because I saw the outside as boring while my inner world was infinite adventure and potential.
I regret that greatly and now as a 20 year old I am trying to make atleast some life.
I am planning on becoming an author on fantasy to atleast inspire men with beauty and my personal philosophical and religious believes. I don't have much worth in of myself. I had a meme tier education which lead me to go on welfare and idk if I can or want to get an education to get a job in this society so getting a relationship seems impossible aswel since despite me being a man who gets friends quick I dont think anyone could love an autist whose spacial thinking is hampered by his anxiety.
I simply try to live my lif the best I can and maybe my knowledge will help people out.
I dont have much value other than enjoying life and being with my internet friends who I love dearly.
Dont give up on your ambitions and be as connecting with your friends as you can. Contact old friends too if you can. I myself am witness to my arrogance and social withdrawnness. Dont be me. Be someone better.
