>>8138199I don't think real life can ever satisfy me. Sure I have glimpses of what my subconscious mind think life could be and it looks very nice, but it's just because I fed it a shitton of anime when I was younger.
Real life is disappointing. You can't fill the void with food, money, games, entertainment, other people, not for long at least. If there's an answer, it must come from within.
You should quit smoking btw. I quit 3 years ago.