>>12775141I know all this to be true from friends who work office jobs but the thought of having to function freaks the hell out of me. I know from past experience that work is never as harsh as I imagine. I've been on gibs for more than a year now after finishing my studies and I am fucking tired of it. Doing freelance work on the side but I want to earn all of my money myself. It freaks me out because I have all it takes, I am smart and have a good sense of humour, too. I have taught myself programming in Java, then Python, App Development in Android Studio and a lot more, all in my spare time just for the love of it. I have the grit when I set my mind to a project but only if it's internal, that is, there is no overseer and I am doing my thing instead of doing a "job". People always value my thoughts and advice and tell me how great it is to talk to me about their problems because apparently I am very good at seeing things in a healthy perspective but that stops right at my own doorstep and I feel I just can't put it together. I look good, too, I have girls come to me all the time, even freaking 19-year old school girls who want to make out. I just fixed a date with a beauty I got to know last weekend, she's into Evola ffs. Still, I can't get ahead and keep pulling myself down. I am easy around people but I freeze up completely when I have to fulfill a function. I have all this potential and don't know how to translate it into reality, no fucking clue what to do with all this, and now I am on /pol talking about my problems.. Clearly no sense of orientation at all.
