>>14000494I've never felt like they would punish me. Mostly because they have me controlled so well that there's little I could do to defy them. But I also get the sense that that's not how they work. It's like expecting a scientist to punish a lab rat. It just doesn't work that way.
They are secretive about some things though. On one occasion I recall being paralyzed, then one of them communicated "you don't need to see this" before my vision and hearing went out. I don't think they mind me investigating or talking about them. I get the sense that they want me to understand the experiences better, but they've never offered straight forward explanations of what the fuck is going on so it's very frustrating.
