FAGC isnt that bad. They loved me there and even gave me my own channel and showed lots of support and stuck up for me against bullies. I only left because the chat moved too fast for me to keep up with and I also wanted to distance myself from everything fishtank to try to break this obsession. (it didn't work)
The SirRodgerBottoms discord is the one with all the bad people in it. Him and the others use to stalk and harass me in the official /FTL/ discord. I think some of them are still active in this community under different alias. They started pretending to be nice to me after they all got banned for doxxing/encouraging self harm/suicide. It was a pretty big purge at the time. After being banned they invited me into their discord and did a poll to make me their "official lolcow". The day after I left their discord Betty was mad and saying she didn't trust me and thought I was Bonnie. I think maybe this wasn't a coincidence.
That's another reason I dont want to stay.
I've been trying to refocus my time on other things even if its a stupid video game or something. I'm trying to ween down from 6mg klonopin a day to 2mg which is my actual prescribed amount. I'm going through self induced hell desu. I'm trying to kick my Betty obsession too so she doesn't hate me so much. It's bad when she says freddy/skull/deject literally everyone is better than me. I need to fix myself.
Thats my post for the day, I wasn't even suppose to make this one so I'm breaking a promise to myself. I'll kick this addiction and my obsession in time. I really think I can do this.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dxamimzqbeE 