Guys, I’m losing my fucking mind. I got laid off on the 16th and my life has totally fallen apart. I’ve been employed as a boilermaker/welder since 2013 for a variety of different outfits. Honest work— it’s hard and you don’t have to be smart, but it paid the bills and kept me busy.

But now I’m not busy. And no one is hiring. I’m rapidly approaching full blown alcoholism. I saved plenty of money so the fact that Utah’s unemployment system is totally fucked hasn’t been a problem. I just need something to do, because without an outlet I turn into a nervous wreck. I’m losing my fucking mind. I’ve basically drank until I’ve passed out for the last two weeks. Now it’s 230 in the morning and I’m out of beer. I can’t sleep. I probably wont sleep tonight at all. I was getting up at 5 am for months and going to the gym after work every day, but now my job is gone and the gym is closed.

I’ve dealt with depression before. Bootstraps beat therapy every time. Diet, sleep and exercise are the cornerstone of mental health. But I can’t exercise when the gyms are closed, my sleep schedule is totally fucked because I’ve got nothing to wake up for. What the fuck am I supposed to do besides drink and shitpost all day? How do I stop? When the fuck am I allowed to go back to work and get some goddamn structure?