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So...I don't know why this is weird...but it is
I mean I know why it's weird...but...I don't know
SO ANYWAY...
My first boyfriend in college...My first love...first serious relationship...first time...etc. Is now a pretty famous author... best sellers list and all that jazz.
That in and of itself is not the weird part. It doesn't bother me to have successful ex's
The weird part is that he is basically famous for writing a current book that falls smack dab in the middle of the millennial book catalogue. So basically my age group.
People bring this book/author up in conversation pretty much on the regular.
I have not read it...I have no issue with this person...it's just...Honestly reading a book from someone I have slept with just feels weird
It's honestly just probably me making things weird
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But yeah...when it gets brought up in casual conversation I quickly change the subject and people are usually like "whats up?" and I;m like...nothing.
and it just gets more awkward.
Why is my brain like this?
I have another ex who is a successful chef and I do not think I would have any issues eating at his restaurant...why is this so awkward?
It happened on facebook...I went to post a humorous quip on a friends status but when I looked at the other comments someone had quoted his book and I decided not to comment.
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NO ONE KNOWS I DATED THIS GUY SO WHY IS IT AN ISSUE?
My only guess is that being my first love and having the first time connection thing...that maybe I just have too much past emotions attached to him or something.
In no way do I still have feelings for him...in fact I see pictures of him now and then and I realize he actually is not my type at all It's just this weird emotional connection thing that makes this stupid book come up all the time in my life.
OK LONG POST WITH VERY LITTLE POINT Is officially over
TLDR: Ex bf wrote book. Anxiety ensues. Brain broke.
