how do i leave my small town if im on probation for being black? and god traps me here. god traps me here its all gods fault and im black

>live in rural area
>on probation for being black
>no stores
>no amusement parks
>no concerts
>people are too poor to travel
>just sad pick up truck driving retards everywhere
>coldest winters in the world
>nothing to do
>no concerts
>no malls
>no places to buy things
>no hobbies
>no people to do things with
>house is 300 years old
>parents are Poor
>parents room fucking stinks like mildew like fucking crazy entire house is destroyed
>dont upgrade it at all
>windows are covered in old chipping lead paint
>house is leaking all over it rains
>live in cold as fuck constant rainy and windy climate
>house is shit
>full of lead and mold
>health is failing
>eyes are black
>always look tired
>narcolepsy
>cant function
>cant do anything
>always look like i have cancer
>nothing to do around at all
>literally nothing
>20-40 miles away from small villages with nothing in them
>7 hours away from a major city thats impossible to visit because of village poverty
>no one around in my town at all
>the only people I know are angry scizophrenic lunatics
>my town is literally 2 roads and a couple houses
>nothing to do at all and its cold 7-9 months out of the year
>too cold to outside snowing and windy as fuck half the time
>not one girl around
>house is freezing cold
>cant even leave room

I keep seeing white people in nice looking suburban homes. I FUCKING HATE GOD