Five hours ago I texted a girl I've had a crush with (and went on a informal date with exactly a year ago, at that one informal date we had I revealed that I've gone through her grandfathers littrature and started asking questions about it, we sat close to silent for almost one hour til at the end of it, felt ok) for soon to be two years ... asking if she want to hang out. I tried to call her first, but she wouldn't pick up, so I texted her three days later demanding to speak to her, then she said she's not good at speaking in phone, then I said we should hang out. We dont even really know each other, we study the same courses and we have spoken 10-15 times. I just initiated a protocol to make a change about not knowing eachother, but I dont really know what I'm doing, even if it all goes my way. Should I apologize when we meet if she goes into mute-mode?

I think I'm sort of freaking out.

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