I hope i die young. I can't bear the thought of living past 35 yrs old. I got fucked from the very beginning, and im sure it only gets worse and worse. I dont desire suicide because if there is an afterlife you go to hell for suicide. I hope something takes me out of this world early. I really fucking hate this place, i hate the people, i hate my body, i hate my unstable mind. I didnt nor could i have chosen to be born. Why am i penalized for things i dont control? I hate god.