Hello /bant/, /fit/ here with some questions

I've had enough of being alone and my depression is killing me inside, I hate the idea of having real friends because of all the baggage that goes alone with it, also they will one day die and leave me. Some anon mentioned a Tulpa and i did some research and I want to know if any of you have created one successfully? I would like to have someone to talk to and who would talk to me. That is all, thank you