fuck this my gf broke up with me and i haven’t gotten coochie since my state locked down i hate everything i want to die i keep studying to avoid thinking about how much i fucking miss her and how my life is going to change without her and how her family is totally cutting me off. i was never close with my family because they were all mentally unwell and/or addicts but her family took me in, her dad called me son, and said to her one time “why dont i see a ring on that finger”. i fucked up so bad i want to die i cant fucking handle this pain i cant eat my sleep is so fucked and i just force myself to smile. let me fucking die