>>10525753believe me if i wasnt trying i would be dead right now or in prison or an asylum or some shit
i do go outside and exercise, but i also break into cold sweats when in public (when i know people can see me), literally start panicking even if someone looks at me
not to mention my disease and how much physical pain i have to deal with, literally have torn cartilage in my knee and it burns constantly and i have ulcers on my nutsack
my brain is fucked and i can feel myself slipping into insanity, also im alone and have no family lol
idk why im even saying any of this lole i wish i died in a car accident or something because i cant bring myself to give up willingly even if im in constant pain and anguish
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA hahahahha
thanks for the advice though friend i do need to try and enjoy nature more and get outside more i just have a hard time finding places where i feel comfortable
