I feel like my life has run its course anons. I recently got involved in crime but obviously noone takes me serious. I’ve come to realize I’m a joke. I used to have friends who took their studies and life very serious but it seems all I want is to be isolated like a schizo, and now I finally got what I wanted. Is there some honor in suicide if you truly are a schizo? I’ve come to understand that I’m a vulture type of person, and even though I want to become a therapist, there’s probably some smarter, more idealistic girl out there with less brain damage. I lived too fast anons, and now I have to settle for a life of mediocrity, plus I have to accept that I never was smart, even though everyone kept telling me I am. My delusions are killing me, my worldview is changing and it hurts anons. I’ve gone to hell.