>>10746223focus? nononono, now that I think about it they just clear the depression and suicidal tendencies
I already noted everything butbthe fucking message got deleted
>conceptuaoly bizarre thing to ask, it's like feeling something you don't have a sensor for, you can only anologise the signal via other sensory organs or by shifting the signal into the one withing your calibrated meassure of sensorsgive up? no man, I'm just being pragmatic
I already lost a year, if I manage to pass I should keep after it, if I fail I need atleast 2 years to emass wealth, get a driver's licence, a cheap car and lots of drugs
that's my only drive man, the drugs, everything I do from now on is in the name of more drugs
a university degree can land me a high paying job that can buy me a lot of drugs, but more importantly a 2 year job plan can land me a lot of drugs now
I'm a very impatient person, I need to get high as soon as possibley theres no way around it
I am a horrible person but that doesn't matter as long as I keep getting high
>it's potentiating my shizophrenia aswell, tough luck but I no longer give a fuck, I already gave my all and they spat in my face, I no longer care if I live or if I die I just want the drugs and to be left aloneanime is like this one big cope, a big stinger in my eye
getting rejected by those you held the closest over and over again with clear distibction that your kind isn't welcome to be anything more but an acquiantance is a massive emotional smack that you just absorb a coping mechanism into your daily routine to escape from all the shit you did and tried but resulted in nothing
