So 5 years ago I met a girl on snapchat I try to talk to her but she would never reply. But we had started posting stuff targeted towards each other kinda teasing and we communicated that way it was fun and she really enjoyed it I can tell. But after like 6 months relation soured we both kinda hurt eachothers feelings and i left snapchat and all social media she was aware of i deleted them all. But I was too lonely or something I kept stalking her now and then from fake accounts, I would make a account and try to follow her on instagram but she had gone private and she never accepted my follow request maybe she knew I might be stalking her I didn't like this behaviour myself and would feel preety awful and would delete the account mostly within a day but for some reason I steel keep gravitating towards her. I feel real stupid and awful its been 5 years and I'm steel stuck longing for this girl with whom I never even had a proper conversation. I don't know what I want but I think I kinda needed a closure if only I was properly rejected i dont know.