>>1092954at least cry in private, if you really are so anxious you will puke you should see a doctor, anxiety like that is a legit problem.
the other part is the acceptance of your situation, dying alone is not a funni meem, nor it is something to be even jokingly OK with. there is no reason you 'should' be like thos, make getting rid of the fear the first step and then follow the other advice.
at least you are not a weeb so you are doing something right
>>1092997sounds like you are attracted to stereotypes. you need to stop watching JAV porn, delete the asian girls pictures folder, and go totally cold turkey. i'm sorry to hear about your family but this is pretty similar to my childhood, if you want a girl to take care of you it sounds like you have some unresolved issues from this. i unironically recommend you find a councillor or therapist to talk to, provided it's not expensive/ covered by socialised medicene programmes. just go with the flow of each session and don't be afraid to be totally honest about yourself, it can be very helpful. good luck finnbro
