>>109306842 Years ago I was suicidal. I was at my cousins trailer and got drunk and swam as far as I could across a lake in the middle of the night. I wasn't sure if I could make it I am just an ok swimmer I guess.
I got past the middle but realized I wasn't going to have enough energy to swim back and no one knew where I was. I thought I was going to die. I used the dead man float and slowly made my way back but the lactic buildup was so great I could barley move my limbs enough to stay above water.
I stared up at the stars, it was a perfectly clear night. I felt a strange connection. I reasoned that if it was my time to go that it was ok. I experienced a strange surge of energy, probably adrenaline but it felt spiritual in the moment. I kept pushing and made it to shore where I passed out from exhaustion and slept until the morning.
Since then my life has completely changed for the better. I no longer drink, smoke or do drugs, I have accumulated a huge savings and am way more positive about life.
I am not sure what my moral is but I just wanted to share this because it was the day my life changed forever.
