>>10938005>160 I was hitting that at 15 without synthetic man drugs.
The real question here is why post this thread at all? Who are you trying to convince but yourself? None of us will take you as a man and I assume you knew that so you are either a glutton for abuse or you're testing yourself to see how confidently you can defend these beliefs of yours when faced with a large group of people you know disagree. Or its a larp.
In general I see you as a tragic character, you've gone through some unfortunate nonsense that led you to the point where you completely deny the person you are and always have been/will be and instead adopt this cartoon version of masculinity with a name change and surgery to boot. You deny yourself and play pretend everyday taking drugs to help further convince yourself and others that this five foot something girl with wide hips and blatantly female features is in fact a tough guy who is just one of the boys. But you know that isn't the case, if you miss your hormone therapy for a few months all of this lie starts to revert and you're left a strange androgynous mess. Imagine needing to see a doctor in order to be a man. This alone is why it will never work for any of your types. You need to drop the act and embrace truth. Nobody thinks of you as a man despite your efforts and they never will. Save yourself the anguish and give it up
