>>10952895Well, I can't say for certain. Part of it is because life is inherently meaningless. The only purpose you have, is to reproduce. And who would be cruel enough to bring a child to a world like this? Every day, almost without exception, I do the same things in the same order, like some mindless robot, and I'm expected to repeat it ad infinitum until I die, or I'm viewed as a social outcast. I have friends that I hang out with every now and then, but I still feel alone along them. It's not very surprising that "depression" is so common, when hedonism runs rampart as opposed to religion and morality. I've spoken to various psychiatrists and doctors about my feelings, and the only cure seems to be some fucking pills, that completely numb the mind. As if that's fucking normal. Some days, I manage to distract myself with some meaningless activity, and actually enjoy it. And then, at the end of the day when I lie down in my bed, it's just me. Alone, inside my own head. There's no endorphin being released to fool me into thinking life is good.
Nation-states are destroyed, and there's no sense of community anywhere. People use eachother, only for personal gain. It's frowned upon to be nationalistic and patriotic, and you're encouraged to immigrate away from your native country, and move somewhere, where you can afford yourself more hedonistic pleasure.
And part of it is, because I'll never be able to connect with another human being on a deep, emotional level. It'll just forever be me, alone.
sorry for the rant, i've had a bit to drink.
