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A bunch of friends were getting really religious; I always considered myself a Christian, but they were really pushing the boundaries; seems like they made leaps in faith without really rationalizing what they were reading or saying; everything was unsourced, and they just soaked it right up.
Upon missing my cousin's baptism today, I realized that my heart isn't in the right place; not just my heart, but my mind has been swayed by the idea that Christianity was invented by the Romans to keep dissidents docile, that Jesus was modeled after the story of Titus. I can see it all now, how it makes perfect sense that what I believed in was just wishful thinking and a literalist interpretation of a comedy.
Now I feel myself fading in faith. I still believe in the spiritual; I just feel so depersonalized from "god" that it saddens me to no end.
I'm thinking of furthering my studies on Germanic paganism.
Any thoughts?
Upon missing my cousin's baptism today, I realized that my heart isn't in the right place; not just my heart, but my mind has been swayed by the idea that Christianity was invented by the Romans to keep dissidents docile, that Jesus was modeled after the story of Titus. I can see it all now, how it makes perfect sense that what I believed in was just wishful thinking and a literalist interpretation of a comedy.
Now I feel myself fading in faith. I still believe in the spiritual; I just feel so depersonalized from "god" that it saddens me to no end.
I'm thinking of furthering my studies on Germanic paganism.
Any thoughts?
