>>11102527if you're not exaggerating and it's truly "crippling" and debilitating, you need professional help. You're beyond being saved by some banal or cliche suggestion on the internet.
I used to have abuse/alcohol problems, sleep problems, social problems, etc. but I never once felt completely crippled or disabled because of the problems, I always felt like I had some semblance of control, so I was able to help myself out of the hell I had created. Eventually I quit drinking entirely (not so much as a single shot or glass of beer in about 6 years now), completely quit drugs, became career focused, fixed my sleep (out of necessity to succeed at my career) and everything just sort of fell into place. I even stopped consuming caffeine/coffee at the beginning of this year and have never felt better in my life.
I think it's a great show of strength to be able to resist material temptations, to be able to have the willpower to refuse things for no reason other than to better yourself or just prove to yourself that you can. As I become wealthier and more established in life, I do what most would consider to be counterintuitive and actually live more and more frugally, cutting things out of my life rather than adding new things into my life. In some ways I'm slowly sliding towards a monk-like existence, maybe that will be the final stage later in my life, who knows.
