>>11251747I can't even remember when I began masterbating, probobly 11 or 12. Started off with normal porn but it transitioned quickly enough to scat. I got off from the embarrassment, shitting panties and what not. Smearing and eating was still disgusting to me. Eventually It wore off and I just stuck with fart porn.
I started drinking when I was 14, parents didn't know. At first I would do it to get me more horny. I would drink a bit, then get an enema because it stimulated my prostate and made orgasm better. Though eventually I would just drink alone and listen to music. I never got really got drunk, just heavily buzzed, though once I made the mistake of drinking a lot of cognac and I ended up vomiting twice the next day. I just told my parents I must be sick.
I'm clean now, I don't do any of these things anymore. After not masterbating for over a month my fetish became disgusting, its as if it just vanished from me. The only reason I'm "clean" is because of Christianity. Understand that whatever wrong you've done, you can be redeemed.
