So I fell for the christianity meme. I was already christian on paper but I never practised until a few years back after the great flood of christ posters came to /pol/

I feel like it was all a waste, all the praying, reading the bible, going to church, attending service etc. I don't feel like it had any purpose whatso ever. The only good thing that came from it was that I met a very sweet girl that I started dating. But we broke up with a couple of weeks ago simply because she tok her faith so seriously compared to me, it dictated her life which I just couldn't handle.

Anyway it all just felt so empty to me, I can't take it seriously but what's my alternative? I'm spiritually starved