I had a crappy day, got home took off my shoes went to turn my tv on I saw her(in figurine form) and immediately got a rush of happiness. Then right now I was looking for my phone wallpaper to show it on a thread here and I looked at many of her pictures and my heart ached. I just can't believe how much I love her. I am learning how to draw to draw/paint her to the best of my ability. I am learning so much Japanese from listening to the songs from her idol group and writing new Kanji out.

I don't know but it hurts to love her this much because I feel as if I cannot make her as happy as she makes me.

I don't to ramble too much but my point is: she makes me so happy, I feel like she gives me more happiness than I deserve.