Fuck, I hate being an ugly sperg. Not even going to the gym religiously, taking care of my hygiene and dressing stylishly have helped. I'm so ugly that women are scared of me and everyone sees from a mile away that there's something seriously wrong with me. Fuck genetic lottery for dealing me these cards.

Just today on a bus I succeeded in making a girl uncomfortable even though I didn't say a word. When I was stomping my way towards the back of the bus, the girl was staring at me from the moment I got on and was probably thinking "please, don't sit near me, please". But I sat behind her anyway because it's my regular seat that I always sit on if it's available. Immediately after I sat down the girl began to turn her head to the side, taking nervous sideways glances towards me - you know, pretending to look away while her eyes were fixed on me. And whenever I looked away, she quickly glanced directly at me. When there was eye contact, she became so nervous that she started to brush her hair to soothe herself. After a minute or two of this the girl was already so anxious that she started sweating so she opened her jacket and lowered it so that her both shoulders were visible but her arms were still inside the sleeves. After the next stop the girl pushed the stop-button, put her jacket back on and while getting up she kept taking those quick sideways glances at me, even biting her lip by accident. I'm not an expert when it comes to human behavior but I saw that she was clearly nervous as fuck. Just as she was about to get off the bus, she took one quick glance behind her, as if to make sure that I wasn't going to follow her and possibly rape her or something.

I'm pretty sure that the girl got off the bus at the wrong stop just because she felt so uncomfortable and afraid when sitting near me. Now I'm at home, scared out of my mind that she called the cops on me.