Been meaning to get this off my chest for a while now.

I was inspired by Elliot Rodgers to do a school stabbing. Luckily I didn't have the balls to. Made a plan on my phone using school's ms word account and posted my manifesto and diary to instagram over school wifi using a fake name but my real face as the pfp.

The plan covered many crimes such as petty vandalism and unconsentual molestation of a classmate at knifepoint.

This was because at that time I had delusions of somehow being Corrin from Fire Emblem Fates (even though I thought the game was absolute shit) and thought I needed to commit suicide and/or homicide (beating Elliot Rodger's 'highscore') to return to Hoshido. I still get delusions though I don't act on them, now I just think I'm going to get Isekai'd randomly ReZero style.

Attempted suicide many times, never got anywhere cos I kept pussying out. The closest I got was when I made a thread on /b/ saying 'trips writes my suicide note' with pic related and almost live streamed me slitting my wrists and jumping onto a motorway before someone convinced me to pussy out.

I've only ever told 2 people about my delusions and only 1 knows about my planned homocide. Now that no one will read my r9k Ted talks about my self, looks like only 2 people will ever know. Feels good to get it off my chest though.

At the time I was 14, it's been a good few years since then and I've improved myself past being an incel.