My girlfriend is killing herself on the August of 18, her birthday, this is just a rant and my first post so yeah. She got raped a few months ago and apparently try before that on her last birthday, she attempted suicide. That wasn't her first attempt but when she was raped jt was her most recent from whatvi know. She wants to suddenly end ties and about half a year. She has always seemed really cheery and I don't know what to say. We can't see each other often because covid and I'm genuinely scared for her. Don't want to see her leave but I don't want to see her kill herself. I am going to try and meet her on the weekend and talk her out of both, but its prod nit going to happen. She is doing this because for all the years she's been alive she has felt guilty and the guilt has just piled on. Her words not mine. She's not very edgy and wouldn't seem like the person to harm herself, but she hates herself and talks about wanting to remove her boobs because their "too feminine". She cuts herself a lot on the wrists and on the legs, iys gotten so bad her step mom had to take the sharp objects away from her yet she persists with the cutting. I have very mixed emotions but mainly guilt and sadness. I've felt this a few times from other relations and ill get out of the feels, but if she kills herself for real on the 18, idk what might feel. I don't know where else to post this other than plebbit farm karma, but I would feel too guilty and reddit is fucking shit. Idk if I should tell the police about the rape, about her suicide plan or, I might tell her parents or something. Any feedback would be okay and thank you if you do that, but this is mainly vent