I've been learning Russian in advance of my third attempt to GTFO from the USA. I just happened to come across this song on YouTube that I mostly can't understand but I liked it and I listened to it about 100 times before I checked what the words mean. Turns out... the song is kind of about me.

After I finished working out today, I was getting kind of a sick feeling like I had said the wrong thing about the wrong person with regards to one (or more) of those guys from Alliance. I feel bad if I did but basically fuck you for your disguises and deceit and lies. Certainly I did do do that, in fact, due to the way Helene was saying on the phone not too long ago, "Who didn't you turn on yet?" A while after she said it, I had kind of a jerk-store moment when I should have said, "Who would have been for me to begin with that I could have turned on?," but the best I can do with it is put it into the fake thread on the fake internet. Here's what I can say now to the question, "Who didn't you turn on?" My answer is, "Whose real name do I even know?" Furthermore, I would like to know the name of the person who handed me a black belt at Alliance in 2012. If that relationship hadn't crumbled as it had, I would have gone eventually to tell my own student that their lineage in jiu jitsu was Count Koma to Gastao Gracie to Rolls Gracie to Romero Cavalcanti to me, and that would have been a big lie and it would have been a sick and perverse lie in the mind of everyone who knew the truth about that.