>>120769I'm on Paxil (paroxatine) now for depression and anxiety, and it might be working. I'm still basically a zombie (I have no interests anymore, no motivation, and do nothing besides work and sleep), but I'm a happy zombie, and I find myself talking to people more. However the vivid nightmares and sexual dysfunction are a bitch. I miss stimulants; they gave me the motivation I used to have when I was a kid. I admitted to my doc that I used to abuse them, and so he took me off of them. So that means that I'll have to buy some weird experimental research-chem stimulants instead, which will definitely be worse for my health.
Pic related is what I was planning to use to kill myself. Mayapple root is a potent sedative, and a favorite suicide-drug of the Indians. If this lethargy doesn't go away, I'll probably kill myself, because I basically don't have a life right now. At first I thought it was amphetamine withdrawal, but it's been six weeks now, so withdrawal should be over. Could it be depleted dopamine from the heavy stim use? If that's the case, will it ever get better?
