>>12110103"drainer" here.
I've had many, many women over the years and I've never been able to treat one decently. I always try too, I really do, but for some reason.... eventually I just need to lie to them. I need to push them, stress them out, gaslight them to the point of questioning their every decision... then "forgive" them, build them back up, only to let it happen again.
I really don't know why I do this. I have emotionally destroyed every woman I've ever been with for long than a month. sometimes they can "sense" who I am inside and immediately go running, warning all their friends too.
I don't know why I'm like this. I'm 36 now and I stopped dating a long, long time ago. I don't like the drama of breaking down women and I most certainly cannot function normally in a relationship.
I like it when they cry and beg me to stay, but I just can't be assed to deal with all the drama leading up to it, ya know? I just order in-home strippers/escorts and push them to "accept" certain things. it's no fun when they're like, "oh yeah that's just $100 extra"
i guess i'm kinda fucked but I like it so whatever
