>>12274171>>12274173I tried to lift before, I don't eat enough for it to ever stay on though. Or I lose the energy to continue after a few weeks/months and then reset back to my default. Always had a small frame, my family is small people besides my grandpa who is 6 feet.
I used to be the kind that would juggle fwbs around but I've felt like in the last year that I would rather attempt a regular relationship, flaws and everything. I haven't had a regular gf since I was a high school senior, 6 years ago. I'm being brutally honest in myself and my gf: her weight is disgusting, but her face is cute and she's very pleasant to be with. I guess that's the offset though for me being short and poor. I've definitely banged much hotter women before, but it was all just flings for a few weeks or months. Even when everything felt right, they would always dip out if serious emotions got involved or like it may escalate beyond. I think if I left the current gf I have now, I wouldn't be able to find another. I mean I probably would, but with the same things...obese, tattoos, nose rings etc.
>>12274177I kind of laughed when writing it to. I'm partially autistic and laying it all out like this is funny to me, sitting back and wondering where it all went wrong. I wonder if my circumcision has anything to do with my retarded mind.
