>>1231176You know, it's funny because I used to emphatize so much with people, even quasi-strangers, that it got to the point that their problems started to become my problems, and I would feel like shit whenever I couldn't do anything to help them, because I felt it was my fault, somehow, for not being good enough to fix their shit for them. And not even the 'aw that sucks' kind of feel bad, but the 'depressed, staying awake for hours thinking about it, sometimes even crying like a bitch' kind.
It got so bad that I basically forced myself to become a shut in, I stopped talking to people at school, I stopped going out with my friends and never made new ones at uni. I just spent my time studying at home and shitposting in here. People at first did try to get me out of my shell, but soon gave up thinking I was simply the worst kind of asshole.
At least in here I can kind of play at being an asshole without feeling too much like one, because all ya'll are to me is just a bunch of numbers with whom I will never have to actually deal with in person
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