>>12704259Not at all. Probably because of the depression and stressors, the parts of my brain which defined me as a person are somehow partially blocked. Over the years, I have built various knowledge in which I found comfort and happiness. However, now I do not remember most of it, and I'm only left with a certainty that I knew that before.
I find myself not being able to recall information and long term learning becomes harder. Not only I have lost a big chunk of myself, 3 months ago I have lost my girlfriend which I love a lot and still cannot really imagine living without. This made me spiral into depression. I don't have the energy to do anything, I rarely can find happiness, my interest only spikes momentarily and I'm often hit with sudden waves of apathia and uninterest. When I started to do music, it was great for some time, and now the musical creativity I pretty much constantly had for years is gone. When I picked up another thing and became decent at it, I've suddenly lost the whole skill. I don't really know what is happening and I just want to be able to be myself from before. I've embraced everything that's wrong with me and how and why I made mistakes and I'm willing to grow as a person, but I fucking need to be able to think and remember.
