>>12732625Hey anon.
Being diagnosed doesn't "save" you from the emotional roller coaster that is your life. It just gives you a "map" of yourself, so you can understand that your harsh emotions are not necessarily your fault, but they are a result of either trauma or it can be just as well, the brain you were born with (read "Stop walking on eggshells").
The important thing is to stop being a victim. Having a condition, does not give you an excuse to be a bitch with everybody, take responsibility for yourself, and your actions. This is what you rolled when you were created. You're not the only one. Make the most of it.
While most people will tell you to stay away from drugs, for me, personally - SSRI is the best thing that ever happened to me. Sure, it made me into some kind of robot, but I'd rather be in control of myself than being a bitch of my own emotions. It helped me greatly with taking hold of my life.
I'm not gonna lie, it costed me dear relationships with two women I loved. They left me, because I became an emotionless and asexual douch, but I don't care, I'm satisfied with my life.
I no longer cry in the morning, than feeling on top of the world at noon, than cry again a few hours later. I had enough of that shit.
In fact, I haven't shed a single tear in over a year, I just don't feel sad, but I also don't feel super happy.
But I don't care, I'm satisfied. In face, I wish I've known about SSRI sooner.
At the bottom line, it takes time for medicine to effect, but one day, after a few weeks or months, you'll wake up, and realize that the shit and constant anger that's going on in your brain is no longer there. So don't be afraid of the side effects and remember you can always quit, gradually and under supervision, and than you can better manage your emotions.
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