Mhmm.
Are you as broken up about this as I am?
I am just here to vent. I don't imagine you'll actually read this.

I acted pretty stupid that night.
My behavior was unacceptable.

That being said, it wasn't that bad.
In general, the issues I have aren't that bad.
You all could have certainly helped me work through them and conquer them.
You never really acted out of consideration for them which in a certain way doesn't show much consideration for me.

I think the decision that was made in response to that night was quite short-sighted.
I have been suffering from shortsightedness myself lately but two wrongs don't make a right.

I think you all had someone pretty special.
Someone who loved you unconditionally and who was as loyal as they come.
Someone you all shared so much in common with across the board.
Someone who worked hard and really had so much to offer.
Lot of good qualities in a generally kind and loving person.

In fairness, you all were pretty special to me also.
Lot of stuff we experienced together, especially you and me... was pretty damn special, don't you agree?

This whole situation is just sad.
I don't even like thinking about it but I can't stop thinking about it.
I know I will never stop thinking about you people... and especially you.
That is my new cross to bare.

I wish there was something I could do about all this but I don't have no time machine.
You all could change this if you were willing but it doesn't seem like that is the case.
Some people are just stubborn like that. I think you told me that once.
Still... it is really sad.