i listened to 8 hours of dnd lore today
i don't even play it but its nice and soothing and i mean im bed and unable to move or even think straight

i also think i jerked off like 8 times at this point because im too sick to do anything else and withdrawal makes me absurdly horny

i also thing i wretched bile on my bed and i looked in the mirror and its all puffy again just like the bad old days

im starting to unironically consider killing myself out of principle
its probably the only logical conclusion

am i got to get to 50, turn around, and realized all i did was jerk off to disgusting hentai pictures and niggers having sex with guys

there was a period there when i actually felt happy sometimes but now i think i fucking offended everyone i have been talking to for years

i even posted someone's penis even though i didn't think i asked for permission god i hope i havent offended him. i said i'd never do that

anyway i'm actually considered self harm rn so its ok guys you're probably going to get what you want so bad