>>1306481819 here. I feel ya. My Senior year got fucked over by trying to chase over a girl who was emotional abusive and later broke my heart, pushed everyone cause I was a depressed fuck, and the pandemic.
Quarantine, however, helped me mental health. Same with a mushroom trip. Just sad that I kinda wasted the later years of HS chasing someone who didnt give a shit about me. Got a lot of friends in college and excited to see them again, but I’m quite lonely back home. I wish I could’ve been better in HS. Won’t get that magical anime SoL, ig. At least I didnt stay a virgin.
However, it’s terrifying! I see YouTubers younger than me with thousands or even millions of subs. People who can draw way better than me or just are amazing at coding. I feel inadequate as fuck! Like I’m just meant to be an NPC. I want to create shit and post it on the internet. I just dont think I have anything worth while to express, though
