I have been abstaining from masturbation in hopes of increasing my chances of having a "nocturnal emission" because I want to have sexy dreams like I did before I became 17 and suffered from chronic ball pain after not ever trying to masturbate before. I also feel nostalgia for when I was in high school and middle school and I always got random boners that were embarrassing. In addition to that I remember how good it felt to orgasm the first time I masturbated, and it would be nice to re-live that experience after not cumming for months.
