>>13606088I know the part you mean. The way your body tries to trick you into thinking you need them when you don't. The manipulative tricks it plays. The lulls and spikes.
But those I can deal with, through friends, exercise, and meditation. The bouts of borderline insanity aren't bearable though, and they destroy the mechanisms through which I deal both with the pangs of addiction and the less severe mood swings.
I know it's not an ideal solution, but given my control when I 'relapse', and the infrequency with which I do so, I just don't feel like it's a problem.
If this means you can't love me anymore, I'm sorry for disappointing you.
